I took some time to think things over the other day and I mean really over.

I have done some pretty stupid thing in my life but this has to be the worst.

I can only dream as much as I want but to live a lie isn't right to the world.

I have been in love, I have lost that Love.

I have broken my heart, I have healed my heart.

I have lost myself, I have found myself.

I have hurt myself, I have helped myself

I have learn so much but have lots more to learn.

as u can see I am in between. I am not yet grown up but yet I am some.
It's Time I most learn to stand on my feet because when I get knocked down I lose who I am.

I know this doesn't make since to u all but it's like life's a teacher testin us all.

we all can pass but it's easier to fail.

so baby steps is what we most do.

 BY ALI PUCKETT

 FLY A WAY

SELF PAIN

                         Their vorces are far

                          u're laughter is gone

                     left with just a tear that lingers on.

                          u're thoughts are clear

                          u're hearts a blurr

                      u slice a thin line to feel it no more.

                         u're room is still

                         the blood it flows

                     u lay on u're back to let the pain go.

SKINNY WITH OUT CONTROL

My mind races
My thoughts confused
All I wanted was a little self contorl
     but
The relief I feel can not be normal
I get off the floor in the bath room
And stare deep into the mirror
"Skinny," they say
But all I see is Fat

My head is pounding
My heart is beating fast
All I wanted was a little Self Contorl
     But
The relief I feel can not be real
I stop running
And Hit the ground
"Skinny," they say
But all I feel is fat

My body hurts
My Minds a blurr
I'll I wanted was a little self contorl
   But
This relief I feel can not be contorled
I sit on the table
The Doctor comes in
"Skinny," She Say's
So help me please

My mind it slows
My thoughts they Clear
All I wanted was a little self contorl
     But
What I got is no More

By Ali May Nastassja Puckett
July 9, 2006

 DEATH CHAMBER

by: Ali Puckett wrote :Aug. 25, 2005

The walls are thin
The halls so long
It feels as though it will never end.
Every things going in slow motion.
And it seems as though it well never speed up.
There's no words that can describe the pain in my chest.
I am outside myself and left with nothing else
but feelings and thoughts.
I'm crying,
I'm shouting
but nobody hears.
They pick me up and lay me on the bed
only to chain me down.
The cretins are pulled back and I see them all.
Without a thought,It goes in
like vinum from a snake.
I can't move,
I can't breathe
There's nothing,
I am nothing.
My eyes close and open once more.
I see my cold, limp body as stiff as a board.
I am dead,
I am nothing.

A VERY WEIRD ASS STORY

well I went to go to bed no longer pist off at no one well besides casper he wouldn't stop talkin last night and its was starting to make me want to pop his tiny head right off his shoulders hey it wouldn't kill him he is r ready dead. Then that Bloody Monkey who wasn't a Monkey after all sat on me with his bloody fat ass so then I got stuck havin to kick his bloody fuckin ass which was enjoyable really... Only then I had to run to the market to get a bandaid for the poor bloody thing and ended up getting a naked baby at the market. so when I got home I ran to my mother and said, "Looky I got a baby at the market mother isn't that great a naked baby at the market." well she made me run back to the market since the baby had no clothes and that bloody monkey was boohooin about me kickin his bloody ass the bad thing was she mad me take damn Casper with me.

So while at the market again I told Casper to go look at the baby clothes and get so for the naked baby i bought there, but really I just wanted Caspers mouth to shut the fuck up. so we got what we came for and was just pullin out of the walmart parkin lot when the damn GEICO Lizard decides to ram my car off the rode. He then talk me in to switchin my insurance to his company and offered me out to Dinner and hell lets face it I am a sucker for Lizards any who I tood him to pick me up at 7.

So I went home dressed the naked baby from the market, put the band aid on the bloody cryin monkey who wasn't a monkey after all and duck taped Caspers fuckin mouth shut and got some sleep.

I went to Christina's and told her the story then told her about my date with the Lizard. I then went home and started to get ready for the Lizards and mine's date... He picked me up to me to a all u can eat fly buffet and then went to the robot dance club. we ended up bad at his house were he made me SCREAMMMMMM all night long Yeapppp. God u r wrong man we didn't do that he just walked on my back hello it was r first date.

Well happy to report this bloody story is very bloody fuckin weird and it will have a part 2 comin soon!!!!!!

BY. ALI OH THATS ME

     RAMDOM THOUGHTS

Most people know me on here and most people don't. most people would like to think they know me on here but most people don't. guess what i am trying to say is everyone on here either A thinks they know me but really the truth is they don't and the other half really don't know me or just know me from here and wants to know more.

The facts of life u will can never really know anyone if u think u know everything about one person trust me u don't there is always a hiden truth under it all. the false face u put up so no one can tell there is. I would know I have been wearing mine ever since 7th grade letting bitz and bitz slip by and never letting those who r close to me in and most likely never will.

I am human am i not we all r those who call them self normal let me be the first to tell u to shove it up u're ass and trun it bc there r no such thing as someone being normal. what is normal if u know let me because i can truthfully say i have no clue we r all made different with different problems. Yes some of use may have a little of the same problems but they r caused by different reasons.

I know i hear my friends or people in my family say oh yeah i know everything there is to know about Ali and a course i don't call them on it only because i do not wish everyone to know everything ther is to know about Ali. i can truthfuly say my parents and sister's don't know everything there is to know about me either so that being said u can turthfully know that no one really knows the real me. some times i wonder if i even know the real me.

there r things about me i have found out lately that r eye dropping things that most people would look at and say people that do that r stupid i know this is what they say because i ave heard people say these things and have often wondered to myself how the hell they can say something like that if they have no clue what is going on in this persons mind and how this person feels and is going through. how can u tell someone they r stupided for something that is a sickness and is one of many that r hard to fight and get pasted. I am not talking about sicknesses in the since of cancer or stuff like that but sicknesses in the since of mental and emotional sickness.

those who know me or who think they know me in better words know what i am talking about since i am one of those people trying to over come my own personal problems. it is not a crime to have one and not a crime to be one of those people. even the most normal or better words people who say they r normal may bne one of those people with a problem but has or is hiding it well. I know I hide mine ever since I was in 7th and it has findly catched up with be to the point of I can say, " I NEED HELP!"

U do not need to know what my problem is and what I need help in that is one thing i will not talk about to the world since it is personal.

Getting back on subject since i am running around like a chicken with its head cut off.

Life is a mess it fun sometimes and hard the next. its a rollercoustor that just keeps going tell it is u're time to get off. my thoughts on people is ya'll need to figure u're self out and get past u're own problems before u start thinking u know others and can help them with theirs.

~~~the prefect song to listen to is by Gary Allen called Life Ain't Always Beautiful~~~

BROKEN SCARS

The past is gone I let it go.

I Loved u then and loved u now

I gave u my heart but u ripped it out

For one cruel Joke, that hurt the most

It was suppose to be speacial my first time,

But u made me feel cheap with a Good-Bye

You got what u wanted, I hope you r proud

So laugh if you want I don't give a damn,

You will see soon what you give out comes right back.

I will cry and I will hurt.

The scars are there I will not lie.

But I still stand tall u can't knock me down

Because

The past is gone I see that now

I'm letting you go with this last Good-Byes.

BY ALI PUCKETT